Sundance Film Festival Founder>Once. Great. Friends. Robert Redford & Renn Reed

21 09 2016

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28 06 2016

China in the 1970’s was everything one could imagine. I lived, and designed there from 1977 -1980. The Chinese were great to me, no matter their socio-economic circumstances. Rich or poor, young or old, we all got along just fine.

There were enough of the modern conveniences to be comfortable while living in the exotic flair of the Chinese culture. But every day, and every night, I missed you so…

In Kaohsiung, Taiwan (which is in southern Taiwan) most of my contacts were business owners or creative professionals. A bank president and owner of the bank; an owner of a prominent 5 star hotel and a prominent department store chain; a noted actress equal to a Lauren Ball here in the United States; and so forth.

But, I never forgot about YOU. I carved out an interesting professorial journey thanks to the friends I made in Taiwan (The Republic of China or R.O.C.); and China (The People’s Republic of China or P. R.C.). 

Sometimes politics can sometimes make things seem like something that they aren’t. Sometimes you have to live and work in a place to even come close to understanding it, if you’re lucky, that is.
It’s so very hard to write about you. I miss you so, my Robert.





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18 05 2016

We were together for 5 years, you and I. You thought I didn’t love you, the way “…you loved me”… WHY??

I refused everything you tried to give me. Everyone else just took what you offered. It made sense to me to decline. Not to be different, but rather genuine.

It’s my nature to try and do for myself. I had goals, plans. I thought by refusing it would be abundantly clear just how much I love you!!

But it didn’t. It seems to me that you walked around viewing everything from only your perspective. Do you still?? I realize that we had deep discussions at times. We even “debated” things at times. And occasionally even chatted about ” …things”… at times.

I stayed with you because I believed in you. In the possibility of us. It was a worthwhile investment, I thought, of my time and energy, and… my love for you. I really didn’t see you the way so many do, mostly women.

We’d be walking with your arm around me. When suddenly out of nowhere a woman would grab you and kiss you. I stood by each time wondering why they thought this was okay?!

And although I always knew you belonged to the fantasies of women around the world. I simply thought of you as my dear, loving friend. Naive or not, I was always surprised by the boldness of others.

Remember the fellow you threw through his cars’ windshield after comments he made about me?? I don’t think anyone then, or now for that matter, would believe that we were just platonic friends.

You were married, with children. And to be anything other than respectful of this just seemed wrong to me. I wanted you to know that. I wanted you to know that I could wait, would wait. But then that horrible day actually came.

The day that I’d finally believed would never happen, happened. You told me of canceling your pending divorce. That she said you had to wait until your youngest turned 18. Then you proposed to me, giving me that beautiful yellow, baguette diamond ring. Which I stared at for a long time then handed it back to you, sobbing.

Did you think I was stupid? Or maybe… your personal whore? Nah, I don’t believe it. Won’t believe it. You weren’t like that.

But I was not going to wait 9-10 years. I had a life, goals, plans, idea’s. That beautiful ring changed nothing. The reality I’d been avoiding all those years just finally hit home. No more denial, no more pretending. As they say, ” …it is what it is”.

I needed to get my head back above water because I was drowning in you. “Fight or Flee” syndrome is what I had. I had clearly lost the fight. It was now time to flee. I didn’t want to go, but China was beckoning me.

I learned the grass is not greener on the other side.





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10 05 2016

I’ve always believed in you.

Married w/Children was my only reason. All the girls hated me, they couldn’t understand why we became friends. I think really it was more… how did we become friends, and they didn’t.

I’m very ordinary, very average looking.  I was never that good in school. I wanted to make something of myself, stand on my own 2 feet.

You wanted to give me the world. I have loved you always. Yet your mantra to me was, “…do you think you could ever love me the way I love you”?

But you never seemed able to feel my love for you. Maybe because we are born from different generations. I don’t know. Seems though that you should have understood, me, after 5 years??

I refused the jewelry, the monogramed drafting table, clothes, Porsche, apartment, absolutely everything. But you never seemed to actually get it.

I refused it all because all I ever wanted, needed… was you. I didn’t need your money. I didn’t need your fame. I was never with you because of your “Golden Boy” good looks. I enjoyed you, loved YOU.

Refusing all that you offered me including flying to Europe, should have screamed volumes about how much I loved YOU!!

But that day, that horrible day, where reality met fantasy I knew we would never be. Not the way I had hoped. And so I had to do something to help my heart. To help my soul. I had to go away, my pain was too great to stay.

I don’t do well with pain, sadness, all of it. I came to you in tears hoping you would have some reassuring kind words to offer me. But no, you thought I chose China over you.

In all reality I was not capable of fighting the insurmountable odds that I was up against. So the only thing I could do was to flee as far away from you as possible. And in a way where you would never again be able to get to me.

But that path which I chose because of how the stars changed our world. What I thought was a constructive way to re-think and re-organize my life, my goals.

Turned out to be the most horrid of nightmares. A scorpions nest full of the worst dreams one could ever imagine. And some beyond imagining. No one could have foreseen any of this shit-storm coming. Not a soul.

That’s when I began to realize, and learn that yes, although we do make decisions everyday. All too frequently for many of us, consequences occur that hit us seemingly out of no where.

And there we are truly in the middle of the storm. No family to help, and no friends available. There we are, stuck, and shit-outta-luck.





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1 05 2016

So… I’ve learned that whether we like it or not, all things are connected. For example, I make a choice, a decision, if you will. You think, a-ha well she chose that over me!!
Thereby you (hypothetically speaking) and not necessarily understanding, that your decision(s) affected my making the decision(s), that I ultimately made, all because of “Your” choice(s).
Choices are made every day by each and everyone of us. What we eat, will or will not make us fat, for example. But sometimes decisions are made which have an affect, or effect not anticipated, or expected therefore.

I’m so sorry!!! SORRY, SORRY, SORRY to YOU!!! YOU JUST DON’T ACTUALLY KNOW, OR UNDERSTAND that I never meant to hurt you!! EVER!! YOU HAVE no idea how SORRY I Am…
I am “cynically optimistic” that you will forgive me. But truthfully, there is a part of me that doesn’t feel that is possible because you make very clear distinctions about everyone and everything. There seem to be no grays in your world.
It is because you never returned any of my calls or messages when I returned, leaving earlier than expected, to return to you, and therfore left my China behind. That being said, sadly I realized how adamantly you had decided about me, and my choices, decisions. I realized early on an apology is not enough, sometimes, anyway.
I only returned to Taiwan because I was offered a position designing with a major department store in Kaohsiung, Taiwan. Some terrible things happened to me well beyond my control, and clearly not anticipated, much less expected.
And once again, I managed to return to my beautiful USA, with help from some friends.
Hence developing a “cynical optimism” so to speak. And… given current circumstances, which I admit I don’t fully understand. I don’t actually expect you to change “your mind” about “things”.
But I do hope, although hoping does seem hopeless, at times. I always hope to see you, speak/chat with you. I hope to at least be “friends” again, with you… BUT…
I don’t believe because seeing does seem to be required to believe. With that being said, I’m cynical since apparently I do NOT see!! So… how does one, how do I, how to… BELIEVE?? IS THE QUESTION.
I don’t know, don’t have a clue as to how to understand, or come to terms with how EVERYTHING has unfolded in these past 40 years. But I wish, and hope beyond hopes, the best for you everyday!!!
I don’t know, or understand your current situation but only want the best for you, ALWAYS!!!
So, I’m hoping at some point you might be able to FORGIVE ME about “IT All”.
I SHALL ALWAYS LOVE YOU, ALWAYS.





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3 01 2016

As I said in a previous blog, life is tough! It throws us curve balls, slams us against the wall, then rips our heart out.

But the key is to find a do-able way to weather the hard times. It’s so easy to become cynical. So easy to become bitter. I’ve been there, didn’t like it one bit. I didn’t like the way it felt.

Robert/John C, I’ve been searching for years how to at least genuinely Hope, again. How to Believe, again. And most of all, How to Dream, again. Sundance helped give me perspective.

The only answer I have found that works for me is to Do. Nike’s motto to, Just Do It, for me works. In Doing “It” I know I’m at least trying, and making an honest effort.

I Don’t know how far I’ll go. But at least I’m trying, no matter who makes fun of me. Or no matter the event in my life that tries to stop me.

I Am Doing It simply by genuinely trying. So I now have a % of Hope. I can’t measure it but if it’s the size of a mustard seed, it will grow… strong and big!

 





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85th Oscar Live Action Short FIRST ENTRIES (5/5/11)

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1. Luis Gallindo for The Package
2. Anthony Spadaccini for Therapy
3. Paul Krizian for The Story Of Us
4. Tati Barrantes And Andinh Ha for Akirake
5. Mattan Cohen for All You Need

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11. Dustin Owl Johnson for Lucky Day
12. Abigail Zealey Bess for Here’s What I Like: Fashion And Flowers. And Now I’ll Tell You Why
13. David Lowe for Meet The Cleavers
14. Renn Reed and Mark Barth for Lost Angels (The Discovery)
15. Justin Michael and Jacob Reed for The Bride Of Frankenstein
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