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3 06 2016

The mind is a funny place. We think we know what’s best, for ourself, and for those we love. When really it is all just a crapshoot. But my movie, Lost Angels The Discovery, is not.

Adele is a wonderful singer/songwriter. Maybe you’ve heard of her. But if you haven’t you should buy at least her latest album titled, “25”. Her songs speak to my heart and I’m not much of one for nostalgia except when it alludes to those I love.

But, “The Other Side” speaks to “US”. About “US”. I’m certain there are many who feel the same. We are ” …running out of time”, you and I. No one knows what tomorrow may bring. All any of us know is that bills and hard work are givens, every single day.

I miss you. Your face. Your tenderness. But your eyes always spoke volumes. It seemed that when you looked into my eyes there was always doubt. A questioning. It was never a lack of trust. You just seemed to not really believe, in me.

We all need acceptance. You did that. We all need a friend to be able to share ourselves with. You were that. We all need love and a positive rapport with those close to us. To grow, learn from, and become ourselves. Only better. We had that.

But your eyes were full of a longing, of a sadness. I’m not exactly sure how to even describe it. You weren’t happy, that was clear. I did not hold the answers, the solution. I did not hold that magic key to make it all okay for you.

And in that horrible day when you broke the bad news to me, what was I suppose to do? What was I suppose to say? I was young, and not demanding. I was not a DIVA and cannot even imagine thinking that I had a “RIGHT” to you.

So I did the only thing I understood, I left. It’s not like I even thought, ” …so how dare she interfere with us”! You were hers. She was yours.

I was something else. But the “Mistress” type I was not. To be that “OTHER WOMAN”, no thank you. I respected your children too much for such.

And, if you think it was easy. Any of it. Wake Up!! Because it wasn’t. Ever.





Film Industry, Sundance Film Festival, Me…

7 04 2012

I am trying very hard to make a film worthy of anyone seriously pursuing filmmaking.  The difference is that my husband and I are doing it all by ourselves, pretty much.  Our best friend Steve passed away 11 years ago now, suddenly of cancer.  We learned about it 3 weeks before his passing.  He wanted very much to make films, he loved good stories, and so we decided to pursue filmmaking in his honor and his memory.

We all know these things take time, hard work, consistent dedication, talent, and so many other important and useful qualities.  I in know way pretend to have them all, or know it all.  I simply push forward hoping some in this industry of filmmaking will take me seriously, meaning my work.

Steve and my husband helped me become cancer free after 12 years, 1987-1999.  Steve passed on Jon Bon Jovi’s birthday March 2, 2001.  Some have said to me why do you dwell on the past?!?  I don’t.  I use my history to push me forward, to remember all of those who have been positive influences in my life.  And for all who are of the opinion that I whine and complain, you try surviving 12 years of cancer, or 7 years of cancer, like Steve Jobs did.  Then if you are one of the “lucky ones” to survive, what they don’t tell you is what you will go through to re-build your life.

I am grateful for all that I have been blessed with, my creative journey has kept me both sane and full of hope that there must be some in this wonderful industry of filmmaking that do not discriminate simply because I am a “50 something”.  All that I am trying to do with my life is have a life.  A life that I was blessed to have thanks to a higher power most of us call God, and two wonderful and dear friends, Mark being my sweet husband.

I have lost my third computer since 2008 to hackers, I will get another at some point when my budget allows.  But in the meantime I am working on my shooting schedule here in Iowa, sketching my storyboard for “Lost Angels”.  In addition, I am working out the kinks in my lyrics for both my movie soundtrack, as well as my commercial CD that will be genre specific.

Life is not easy for any of us.  This economy we are all in makes dreams that much harder to pursue, and achieve.

Thank you all for your interest and support because we can all use a community of people that like and care about what we do.





Why>oming!??

23 08 2009

I’m hoping to begin shooting in Yellowstone National Park, the new scenes for our teaser, by December 2009.  We are in Wyoming and the landscape here is as beautiful in it’s own right, as the Black Hills are to South Dakota.





Hey All!

6 05 2009

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