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18 05 2016

We were together for 5 years, you and I. You thought I didn’t love you, the way “…you loved me”… WHY??

I refused everything you tried to give me. Everyone else just took what you offered. It made sense to me to decline. Not to be different, but rather genuine.

It’s my nature to try and do for myself. I had goals, plans. I thought by refusing it would be abundantly clear just how much I love you!!

But it didn’t. It seems to me that you walked around viewing everything from only your perspective. Do you still?? I realize that we had deep discussions at times. We even “debated” things at times. And occasionally even chatted about ” …things”… at times.

I stayed with you because I believed in you. In the possibility of us. It was a worthwhile investment, I thought, of my time and energy, and… my love for you. I really didn’t see you the way so many do, mostly women.

We’d be walking with your arm around me. When suddenly out of nowhere a woman would grab you and kiss you. I stood by each time wondering why they thought this was okay?!

And although I always knew you belonged to the fantasies of women around the world. I simply thought of you as my dear, loving friend. Naive or not, I was always surprised by the boldness of others.

Remember the fellow you threw through his cars’ windshield after comments he made about me?? I don’t think anyone then, or now for that matter, would believe that we were just platonic friends.

You were married, with children. And to be anything other than respectful of this just seemed wrong to me. I wanted you to know that. I wanted you to know that I could wait, would wait. But then that horrible day actually came.

The day that I’d finally believed would never happen, happened. You told me of canceling your pending divorce. That she said you had to wait until your youngest turned 18. Then you proposed to me, giving me that beautiful yellow, baguette diamond ring. Which I stared at for a long time then handed it back to you, sobbing.

Did you think I was stupid? Or maybe… your personal whore? Nah, I don’t believe it. Won’t believe it. You weren’t like that.

But I was not going to wait 9-10 years. I had a life, goals, plans, idea’s. That beautiful ring changed nothing. The reality I’d been avoiding all those years just finally hit home. No more denial, no more pretending. As they say, ” …it is what it is”.

I needed to get my head back above water because I was drowning in you. “Fight or Flee” syndrome is what I had. I had clearly lost the fight. It was now time to flee. I didn’t want to go, but China was beckoning me.

I learned the grass is not greener on the other side.

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Lost Angels[The Discovery]>Robert Redford!!

18 01 2016

I shall find a way to make my movie “Lost Angels[The Discovery], in spite of “the haters”. I shall find a way to buy the books to study; I shall find a way to learn all of the software to make it right. I shall find an honest way to pay all of my bills. I shall make our movie in honor of Steve who, along with Mark, helped me to become cancer free.

I have lost 25 hours of work (total hours per week), since November 30th. This current week 1/18 to 1/24 I’ve been scheduled only 15 hours at work. + I’ve been told if,  “…things don’t improve, more will be cut”! Most of the high schoolers are making more hours than I!

“They” try to drag you down. “They” work so hard to make some of us miserable. But I don’t have time for “It”!! I have a life! I may be 62, but, I am young at heart. I believe in “HEART”, perseverance, dedication, hoping for the best, devotion>Robert!!!





We Have 2 Films “In Consideration” @SFF

6 10 2011

We are both humbled and honored to announce that our 2 films, “The Passion, The People, The Party” and “The Art of Patience: A Visual Journey Behind The Arts Of China” are “…In Consideration” @SFF, The Sundance Film Festival.  Thank you Mr. Redford and SFF staff!  We dream it and try to achieve it, but you help to provide the “The Hope” through all of your many supportive and wonderful organizations.  Thank you so very much for the opportunities Sundance makes possible





2011 Sundance Film Festival

12 12 2010

First I want to thank Mr. Redford for his various organizations as they provide wonderful opportunities to us all who love good stories and movies.  But it is with great appreciation that I thank the Sundance Institute and Sundance Film Festival staffs for their unbiased and trustworthy decisions.   We at Liquid Ice Entertainment knew that we were fighting an uphill battle given that the Sundance organizations primarily lean towards documentaries and docudrama’s.

Yet whether applying for the Sloan Commissioning Grant, or applying at the Sundance Film Festival, “Lost Angels[The Discovery]” being an action, drama, thriller, did well before we finally received our rejection letter(s).

In both instances the Sundance organization had nice things to say about our project.  In 2009 Producer in Residence, Feature Film Program: “We became fans of your project”, and then this year in addition, “We felt your project had tremendous merit and potential”.  So we live and learn from this and keep pushing ever forward.

So for those of you that may feel less than hopeful in terms of successfully making it into the Sundance Film Festival or receiving a grant from the Sundance Institute I say go for it!  It never hurts to try and all they can do is say “Thanks, but no thanks…” to you.  If you don’t try at the very least, then you’ll never know.
Have a wonderful holiday season and a very Happy New Year to you all!

Sincerely,
Renn Reed, President
Liquid Ice Entertainment





Sundance Film Festival 2011

26 09 2010

Renn Reed

Renn Reed ‎”Lost Angels[The Discovery]” short (although a full-length feature film when we do finally go into full production), has been submitted to the Sundance Film Festival for consideration for the SFF 2011 (January 20-30th 2011), please send “POSTIVE VIBES” our way!