3 06 2016

The mind is a funny place. We think we know what’s best, for ourself, and for those we love. When really it is all just a crapshoot. But my movie, Lost Angels The Discovery, is not.

Adele is a wonderful singer/songwriter. Maybe you’ve heard of her. But if you haven’t you should buy at least her latest album titled, “25”. Her songs speak to my heart and I’m not much of one for nostalgia except when it alludes to those I love.

But, “The Other Side” speaks to “US”. About “US”. I’m certain there are many who feel the same. We are ” …running out of time”, you and I. No one knows what tomorrow may bring. All any of us know is that bills and hard work are givens, every single day.

I miss you. Your face. Your tenderness. But your eyes always spoke volumes. It seemed that when you looked into my eyes there was always doubt. A questioning. It was never a lack of trust. You just seemed to not really believe, in me.

We all need acceptance. You did that. We all need a friend to be able to share ourselves with. You were that. We all need love and a positive rapport with those close to us. To grow, learn from, and become ourselves. Only better. We had that.

But your eyes were full of a longing, of a sadness. I’m not exactly sure how to even describe it. You weren’t happy, that was clear. I did not hold the answers, the solution. I did not hold that magic key to make it all okay for you.

And in that horrible day when you broke the bad news to me, what was I suppose to do? What was I suppose to say? I was young, and not demanding. I was not a DIVA and cannot even imagine thinking that I had a “RIGHT” to you.

So I did the only thing I understood, I left. It’s not like I even thought, ” …so how dare she interfere with us”! You were hers. She was yours.

I was something else. But the “Mistress” type I was not. To be that “OTHER WOMAN”, no thank you. I respected your children too much for such.

And, if you think it was easy. Any of it. Wake Up!! Because it wasn’t. Ever.


22 05 2016

China changed my life forever. Even so, I’ve never forgotten you. Us. I don’t know that my going to China was a mistake, or wrong. I did manage to sort things out about us that first trip.

That’s why I returned to you. For YOU. For US. Like you had gone on about for 5 years. But, you weren’t there. You weren’t available, to me. Anymore. I called you at all the numbers I had always called you. Left message after message. No reply.

I called more than you can imagine. My calls to you ended because you never called me back. Anymore. So I logically drew the conclusion that I was wrong about you. Wrong about US. There was no more US.

I completed my last semester of college, graduated. And there was no one there to celebrate it with. No family. No friends. But most of all, no you. All those months while at BYU trying to reconnect with you and not once did you ever return my phone calls.

You were always black and white, cut and dried. However you want to put it. At that point you’d become the absolute epitome of a hypocrite, to me. Professing profusely your “profound” love for me. But no reply.

You would go off and work, making your movies for months at a time. But, I was always dependable like clock work. Always there for you when you returned.

However, I go off to China for 18 months and return to you. Finally ready for you. And voila, you’re not there!! Rather, you’re not available to reconnect with. Ever, ever, ever!!

Your life had been carved out long before we met. That’s fine. I wanted my own life. A life I’d earned. Not a life given to me because some rich, famous guy could make anything happen.

Just a life I could be proud of and say, I CAN stand on my own two feet. Why did that bother you so much?? Why did you always equate that important goal of mine to not loving you as much as you claimed you loved me??

I wasn’t being stubborn or egotistical. Really I was being practical. I knew I was young… 17 years younger than you. That didn’t matter to me, but what did matter was your stubbornness. Your ego. It never seemed to be enough that I just loved you, no conditions, no gifts necessary. Just you, just me.

Bruce, Robert Redford, & SFF

15 12 2015

So I’ve heard this past week that there were those who thought this to be a dead blog site… No Way!!!

I fell, hit my head damn hard on the kitchen floor at the McD’s where I work. Wasn’t good, couldn’t remember my name. I have worked damn hard to pull “IT” together.

So although I don’t blog everyday, or necessarily every week. I truly try to blog once a month. But since I learned people thought we’d given up.

I’m writing this to say, do you know me?! And, if you think you know me, why would you say, much less think I’d given up?! Life kicks us in the ass, and maybe we fall down and lie there for awhile.

But, if you actually knew me, you’d know cancer didn’t keep me down. My ex-husband didn’t keep me down. My 2 daughters didn’t keep me down. So… what do you actually know about me, huh?!

Life is life. It knocks you down, throws you against a wall, tears you up and rips your heart out. A Robert I once knew used to say, you’re young. You’ll learn when you get older. Right, so cynicism = maturity? If that’s the case then I’m more mature than “the hills”!

I have been there, cynical. Don’t like it one bit. Turns a perfectly nice person into a “Bitch” or an “Asshole”. So… I’ve removed the “B” and leave it as an “Itch”.

I’m a “pain-in-the-butt”, an itch with a twist. You can hate me, lie about me, call me names, make fun of me, ignore me and hope I just go away, or like my ex, wish I was dead. Not gonna happen, I’m here to stay.

The “good guys” don’t run and hide, they stay and fight the good fight. They get up, dust themselves off, re-group, and go at it again. I’ll make my movie, that’s the very least I can do for Steven.

Love is love, mine doesn’t die, it grows. Like my loyalty when treated right, believe in me. You’ll see, even if I’m 90.

Oscar Movie Buzz> Sundance Film Festival Lookout!

13 11 2012

Renn Reed Producer/Director Lost Angels[The Movie]shared a link.

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1. Luis Gallindo for The Package
2. Anthony Spadaccini for Therapy
3. Paul Krizian for The Story Of Us
4. Tati Barrantes And Andinh Ha for Adirake
5. Mattan Cohen for All You Need

6. Dustin Owl Johnson for Lucky Day
7. Abigail Zealey Bess for Here’s What I Like: Fashion And Flowers. And Now I’ll Tell You Why
8. David Lowe for Meet The Cleavers
9. Renn Reed and Mark Barth for Lost Angels (The Discovery)
10. Justin Michael and Jacob Reed for The Bride Of Frankenstein
11. Kirk Bair for Dog Days
12. Drew Stephens for Viewer Discretion Advised (Tape 96)
13. Joe Greto for Faded
14. Macaroni and Lutes
15. Smoke
16. Elfar Adalsteins for Subculture
17. Emily Attwood for The Circle Only Has One Side
18. Lincoln Howes for Hostile Witness
19. Heather Morrison for Redumption
20. Tim Sloat for Brother
21. Anya
22. Greenberg Securities
23. Mac vs. PC
24. Eating Out
25. Video Jock

Thursday, May 5, 2011

85th Oscar Live Action Short FIRST ENTRIES (5/5/11)

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85th Oscar Live Action Short FIRST ENTRIES (5/5/11)

I have found several potential entries for the 85th Oscar Live Action Short race, so I am beginning the predictions now. After all, this blog is called “Never Too Early Movie Predictions” for a reason, and we have to start somewhere!

1. Luis Gallindo for The Package
2. Anthony Spadaccini for Therapy
3. Paul Krizian for The Story Of Us
4. Tati Barrantes And Andinh Ha for Akirake
5. Mattan Cohen for All You Need

11. Dustin Owl Johnson for Lucky Day
12. Abigail Zealey Bess for Here’s What I Like: Fashion And Flowers. And Now I’ll Tell You Why
13. David Lowe for Meet The Cleavers
14. Renn Reed and Mark Barth for Lost Angels (The Discovery)
15. Justin Michael and Jacob Reed for The Bride Of Frankenstein
16. Kirk Bair for Dog Days

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Even though we are only 2 people making this movie in honor of our best friend Steven J. Campbell, the turtle shall win the race even if it takes us ’til we’re 80.

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We Have 2 Films “In Consideration” @SFF

6 10 2011

We are both humbled and honored to announce that our 2 films, “The Passion, The People, The Party” and “The Art of Patience: A Visual Journey Behind The Arts Of China” are “…In Consideration” @SFF, The Sundance Film Festival.  Thank you Mr. Redford and SFF staff!  We dream it and try to achieve it, but you help to provide the “The Hope” through all of your many supportive and wonderful organizations.  Thank you so very much for the opportunities Sundance makes possible

Thank You Sundance! We are honored by your kind & supportive words!

27 02 2011

We, Renn Reed and Mark L. Barth, are genuinely honored that the following have taken the time to write to me to express the following encouraging remarks. The Sundance Institute’s Producer in Residence Feature Film Program Anne Lai has been kind enough to share with us that they, Sundance, have not only “…become fans of our project, “LOST ANGELS[The Discovery]…[Dececmber 21, 2009]“, but that they, Sundance, feel it has “tremendous merit and potential…[October 27, 2010]” and that it made for even a tougher selection process this year”.  We knew going in and applying for the Sloan Commissioning Grant of $25,000 USD that we probably wouldn’t make the cut being that our feature-length film is an action, thriller, drama, not a documentary.  The fact t that we are nobody of importance to the indie world or for that matter, the film industry at large, is irrelevant.

And when we applied for the 2011 Sundance Film Festival we were fairly certain we wouldn’t make the cut there either, and we didn’t, despite the current Sundance mantra that they are having a “revolution”.  Fact is we just weren’t, aren’t, good enough. When John Cooper wrote me [Friday December 3, 2010] on behalf of the Sundance Programming team to “…thank (me)”, and to “not to be discouraged by this decision”, going on to say that “…we had far more worthy films than we had room for in the program”, I took heart in this.

As I have been told by some involved in the film industry that I am “…an embarrassment to myself “.  Fine, afterall I am 57 years old.  But I have always believed one should, as Justin Bieber says, “Never Say Never”, to their hopes and dreams.  So I remind myself when Malpaso Productions asked for our script in December 2008.  I was so excited I sounded like a 2 year old at Christmas.  Then in February 2009 Bruce and David Willis’ former company Willis Brothers Films asked for our script, I was equally as excited.   Just as I was honored and thrilled to have the opportunity to work and learn from all that I saw on set, when I was selected for the extra work in National Treasure Book of Secrets in May 2007 shot at Mount Rushmore, South Dakota.

I am grateful for all of our sponsors, they are truly our heroes, and we only have our words to thank them for all of their support through these last ten years.  Whether it was a one time donation, a discounted product, or donations outright, and of course all of those on-going donations, we can only show our appreciation through our efforts to keep trying and pushing forward always keeping in mind the importance to improve our understanding of their products, honing our talents, and hoping one day to succeed in achieving our goals.

For Example, Sony Creative Software has made it possible for me to explore my musical talents.  The couple of measures one hears at our website, http://www.LiquidIceEnt.com is the very first song I ever wrote.   I realize I have a long way to go in refining my musical talents and skills, but I actually wrote this myself on our keyboard, then took it into our Sony products and engineered it to what you hear on our website.  The entire piece can be downloaded for free at my LinkedIn.com website http://www.linkedin.com/profile/view?id=8467278&trk=tab_pro, where one can also hear a song I engineered titled “Shut-UP!” written for the action sequences for our movie.

But of all the many hats I wear at Liquid Ice Entertainment the one that has been the greatest challenge has been scriptwriting.  Our original script, “LOST ANGELS[The Discovery]“, is currently with one of the top script consultants in the business.  I am so grateful and honored that this person is helping me, again saying thank you just isn’t enough.   I am a very detail-oriented person and having shot, directed, and produced over 50% of “LOST ANGELS[The Discovery]” for my “back-up plan”.  I have been learning that scriptwriting and scriptwriters in general, do not receive enough appreciation.

I realize as a novice scriptwriter that I have literally tons to learn.  But I know we have a good story or all of those stated above would not have asked for our original script.  But the art of scriptwriting is a challenge unlike any other I have ever known, be it editing, compositing, marketing, directing, etc.  It is an art form that challenges me to my very core.  So when I read that many movies have gone through numerous revisions some upwards of over 20, 30, 40 revisions, I take heart in my efforts to learn how to write a script the “right” way.  I believe it is something I can learn to do well, and the “right” way.  So when I am seriously disheartened as I am today by “IT” all.  I look at the different emails that Sundance and others, have written to me, and focus on remembering the wonderful compliments that professional people have given me.  I keep moving forward through the heartache of losing MY only desktop computer to hackers trying to get the script, even if I am “embarrassing myself”.

Because afterall what else do I have?  I am 57 years old and going on eight years of being unemployed.  We, Mark and I, have many good ideas for theatrical films some of which are illustrated on our website.  But even if am never able to produce these other projects, I will at least have honestly tried to make a go of it. For I must continue trying, if for no other reason, than to show our beloved best friend Steven J. Campbell, who suddenly fell ill and died March 2, 2001 from cancer of the sternum.  That he, Steve, coupled with my beloved husband Mark, did NOT waste his time and efforts to help my heal AND survive cancer of the cervix, twice back to back, just about one and a half years before he, Steve, fell ill and passed away.

Steve never gave up on me.  When I had cancer I got up to 400 pounds from the medicine and being too weak to do much of anything.   Steve never stopped dreaming that he, Mark, and I could make movies.  “Okay”, he would say, “we’re older, but we can do it.  It doesn’t matter that we’re nobodies, or poor, ofr that we have a lot to learn, we can do this…  we can find a way to make our dreams come true”. Well the tenth anniversary of burying our beloved friend and colleague arrives in two days March 2nd, and I have nothing to show him as he watches  us, rooting for us, from up there somewhere above.

AND although I have lost my only desktop computer to hackers trying to get our script; AND although recently our script was at another major house in Los Angeles where they told us they liked the script but it needs some more work; AND even though the financier with whom I had thought I’d been building a good, strong, business rapport with and who had referred me to this third house;  I have to and must find a way to move forward and I suppose create another back-up plan for my back-up plan.

Because somehow I am going to make this movie, “LOST ANGELS[The Discovery]” and make it the “right” way, which for me means this includes Bruce Willis as the male lead star.  So what that I dream large, I say shoot for the stars, maybe I’ll catch the moon. There are more stupid things I could be doing with my time like gossiping and ridiculing people because they dream large, as the handful of people have chosen to do about me.

Either way at least I am trying to do something constructive and meaningful with my time, talents, energy, etc.  I am working hard to make sure all of you naysayer’s don’t get to me or bring me so far down I give up on myself and my dreams.  When I go to bed at night I can at least tell myself the truth, I do keep trying, and trying to do it well.

Godspeed to you all.


Renn Reed, President
Liquid Ice Entertainment

2011 Sundance Film Festival

12 12 2010

First I want to thank Mr. Redford for his various organizations as they provide wonderful opportunities to us all who love good stories and movies.  But it is with great appreciation that I thank the Sundance Institute and Sundance Film Festival staffs for their unbiased and trustworthy decisions.   We at Liquid Ice Entertainment knew that we were fighting an uphill battle given that the Sundance organizations primarily lean towards documentaries and docudrama’s.

Yet whether applying for the Sloan Commissioning Grant, or applying at the Sundance Film Festival, “Lost Angels[The Discovery]” being an action, drama, thriller, did well before we finally received our rejection letter(s).

In both instances the Sundance organization had nice things to say about our project.  In 2009 Producer in Residence, Feature Film Program: “We became fans of your project”, and then this year in addition, “We felt your project had tremendous merit and potential”.  So we live and learn from this and keep pushing ever forward.

So for those of you that may feel less than hopeful in terms of successfully making it into the Sundance Film Festival or receiving a grant from the Sundance Institute I say go for it!  It never hurts to try and all they can do is say “Thanks, but no thanks…” to you.  If you don’t try at the very least, then you’ll never know.
Have a wonderful holiday season and a very Happy New Year to you all!

Renn Reed, President
Liquid Ice Entertainment